the creativity card.

So, I love pretty much anything involving color and design. For the longest time, I wanted to be an architect, but here I am...planning on getting a degree in accounting. It’s amazing to me how my interests cover a vast amount of topics, such as photography, archery, and top spinning. In pursuit towards art and color, I took a few art classes, allowing my creativity to be expanded. But the more I learned, the more I realized that creativity is a vital part of life, not something that’s merely meant for those who call themselves “artistic”. 

This past school year has been amazing! I’ve grown so much in my relationships, mostly in my relationship with God. Being a wing chaplain has challenged me in ways that I wasn’t really expecting, but gladly embraced nonetheless. Devos, a weekly prayer/fellowship/devotional, have been a really cool part of what I do. I feel like we’ve done everything from beer pong (with root beer) to worship to being women of encouragement. We’ve talked about beauty, self-esteem, and how our identity is found in Christ alone. We talked about dreams and the God Who is faithful to bring about even the smallest and simplest dream. We shared about the heart of the Father, Who is jealous for us and Whose love is unquenchable. We’ve finger-painted, laughed, cried, hugged, prayed, watched movies, snuggled, ate. But mostly, we’ve grown...grown into women of faithfulness and purity, grown in freedom. It’s so beautiful :)

I’m already thinking about next year and how I get to do this all over again. And that thought really kinda freaked me out. I suddenly felt like I had used my last card and that I don’t have anything left to offer. I’m out of creativity. And that was a really depressing and lonely feeling...especially when I’m not even sure if what I did this year did that much good, you know?

But then I had this entirely amazing experience. I can’t even really describe what happened, but in short, everything is good now. I felt God ask me if the creativity I had used was mine or His. It’s His, of course, to which He responded “And you’re saying that I, Who created everything that ever was and ever has been, is suddenly out of creativity?” Talk about a shocker of a question...I almost slapped myself for even thinking such a thing! But isn’t it true though? We go through life and somewhere along the line, we’ve forgotten about Who it is that gives us life in the first place. 

God has my back, even when I forget that He is the One Who is holding my world in His hands. It’s all about trust...and thankfulness. Thank you, God, for reminding me that this isn’t supposed to be my burden and that I should leave the way to speak and the way to influence in Your hands. Thank you for the creativity that You are giving to me right now. Help me to use it to bring us closer to You and that You will be glorified. I love You. 

God, You inspire me :)