“I am an accounting major.” I still feel strange when these words flow from my mouth. Who would have thought? I sure didn’t. I can tell you one thing for certain, being an accountant definitely wasn’t on my list of things I wanted to be when I grew up.
For this very reason, I still find myself questioning if this is the right direction for my life. I really struggle with this sometimes. Why wasn’t theology the right degree for me? Or writing/english? Or architecture? Or music and worship? These questions roll around in my head almost daily. “Have a made the right choice?” “God, is this really what you want me to do with my life?”
These questions used to make me feel like I was faithless, a prisoner to uncertainty. But as I’m growing in my relationship with God and learning more of Who He is, I realize that He welcomes these questions with open arms. God would much rather have me ask Him daily if I was following His will for my life than if I just started walking aimlessly. Here’s some things that God has been helping me understand.
#1: Know your current location. How can you possibly know where you’re going if you don’t even know where you’re starting? Your current location should be founded in the will of God. Hide in God’s will! I’ve noticed that in my own life, I look for God’s will as it pertains to my own plans. This is so dangerous, because my search is bias to my desires, not God’s. Instead, I need to LOSE myself in His will, allowing God full and total control. God is limitless, so why do we constantly try to put Him in a box? God’s plans for your life are much higher than your own, so why try to put a limit on what God is able to do with/in/through your life?
#2: Follow the GPS. We don’t always know which direction God is drawing us, in fact, I’d go so far to say that this is true of most journeys. We don’t know the final destination, but the good news is, God does. This is where trusting Him comes in, which is much easier said than done. Every morning when I wake up, I have to start off the day with this reminder: “God, today I trust You.” Trust is taken a day at a time. You can’t rush trust; it takes time to develop. And who wants to develop that level of trust in you more than God Himself? Talk to Him about it. Tell Him you struggle, He already knows it anyway. But you know? God is faithful. God will give you direction in your journey.
I close with this: you are not alone. We’re all out there, trying to make sense of the passions that God has given us. It’s okay to ask questions. It’s okay to seek council. It’s okay to miss a couple o’ turns and make some legal U-turns because God’s grace is unrestrained, His love, uninhibited. God created your journey, so let Him be your guide.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~ Jeremiah 29:11
~Be comforted: God’s plans for your life are much higher than your own~
